holy crap. a year and a half. whoops. got a new camera, been taking a lot of pictures. still in the navy, still thinking every day is kick ass. married as of january/june last year, it's absolutely perfect. mhmm :) all for now. i really really want to get back into web developement. but, ajax and rails and stuff, i'm tired of <table&rt; tags and etc.

i've given up a lot to get to here. i don't know how i feel about it though. i second guess EVERY step i'm taking anymore. i fail to see a point, i fail to see the end goal. i joined with the knowledge of the end goal, of what i was getting out of this, but now i can't remember. it's like when you lose sight of your goals. all you can think is: "GIVE UP". [but i guess i can't give up]. i can't even be completely open with myself or anyone else in my life. "NO don't give up" is all i hear. it's all my mind keeps saying. but there's NO POINT. i feel so useless and unappreciated. i'm so ashamed. UGH. *twitch*

again i've let this sit without any changes. i'm flying to california now, to relax ;) then i'll be home for three weeks, and then it's gff to boot camp. i've had to leave my kitty, my friends, my home, and my girlfriend in the past week. it's a whole lot of feelings all at once. i don't like this. and me writing anything about it is forced, so i'm going to stop writing about it. pfft blech. my laptop battery just lasted a grand total of 18 minutes and it's at 8%, god damn virus scan started itself in the background. *sigh* cya d00d.

it's a wicked sense of accomplishment, working on this site. ALL of the picture pages are now finished, with all the thumbnails and such. four pages of canon photos and three of the fuji photos. i still have a lot to work on though, with the writing link and hopefully putting more content up here.

i worked 38 hours in four days this work week, and thus had yesterday, today, and tomorrow off. but i'm insanely tired for some reason. it's not my fault! the fucking cat wakes me up at 7:30 in the a.m. pretending like the damn apartment is burning down. oh well. what else would YOU like to see on the website? i need to get working on freaks at wal*mart . com.........

started working on the images. had to separate it into two camera categories because there are so many pictures i want up. only page one of the canon side works. it's becoming a lot of tedium. oh well, i asked for it, didn't i? :-P how's everyone's evening going? i'm super nostalgic, and lonely, and incredibly worried. the navy is going to be really awesome. but it's such a heavy weight on my shoulders right now...

it's time to start something new. i do believe though, that i've used a lot of things for this style directly coming from a few other places i've seen. well that's obvious, who doesn't do that? the links don't work yet, cause i was more concerned with getting the page up. give it time though, i'll have it done, i promise :) any comments?